Feels all different to be here

Time flies...


Whenever I come back here to post, it still feels like I'm back in August. When it was the YOG period. Its like my blog is still stuck back at that period of timing. Funny how I feel this way, but really feels like my blog is still stuck at that time.



School has already resumed for 2weeks already, and I won't deny saying that school has been all good and happy. Really feeling shitty with the fact that my groupings are screwed.. Sigh. I honestly don't know what to do or feel. My GPA is already bad as it is and this semester is bound to make things way difficult. Its only the start and I'm already feeling this way... please don't let things be any worse than it already is.



November is already coming midway, which means December will come soon and its the end of 2010! Time really go and come so quickly. Thinking through how last year ended for me, and now its coming to another full cycle. So much has happened through the year. Now when I look back, it makes you wonder how much did everything change? Ups and downs, happy or sad. Positive or negative. There's just too many things that happened this year.



With every end, comes a new beginning.



On a happier note, I'm going to Phuket in mid-November! Welll, its a 4days escape from Singapore... Maybe time to cool down? I don't know how successful it'll be but all I know is I want to run away from everything here... Its the kind of feeling, you know that life has to go on. Time won't stop and wait for you, but you just want to take a break from everything... It may be a form of escapism, but at least its a break for the mind and soul... There's just too much thing I think and worry about everyday. Sometimes even fear for what may happen... I can't pretend that nothing happened because the fact that I am still affected by what happened and I'm still trying...



Both my mind and body is tired.. but everything still has to continue.



I want to feel happy about things happening around me. I want be happy about myself. I want to be happy so that I can genuinely be happy and not faking it. I'm not going into details why I'm upset because it'll only end up being so miserable.



Its a mind-battle everyday with myself, really it is. Sigh ):



That aside, I'm always grateful for my friends around me, and I apologize if I'm always being so weird/upset/emo over stuff...



If it doesn't kill you, it only makes you stronger. - Quoted from a person who once told me this. Someone who always strong, and probably someone I look up too...


One day, I hope I'll be able to look back and say that, these are what made me who I am and if there's something which will bring me down, it takes more than before to do so.