Sorrow

Why?

I honestly, don't know what is going on in my life now.



I need answers, but can anyone answer me? I'm really trying so hard to be happier because I've got awesome friends around me. I can't find the words to explain but I really can't take this any longer! I'm really trying my best, but it never seem enough.



I've spent all my life trying to help people around me. Friends, family and even strangers. Yet I can't help myself through this crisis, or problem I've been facing. It really pains me to know that, I am still the same person I am from the past.



Have I changed for a better person? Or was I even good for once? I can't seem to understand anything. I am being overwhelmed by all these negative feelings.


Its already so many years! I really cannot take it anymore! Its sorrow ever since I was young, as a child. As young as maybe 5?



There's just so much thing I want to say, but I can't find the words to say. Things are turning so bad I can breakdown. I've been telling myself that I can get through this but looks like not any longer.



I've got no courage to face all my friends, myself or even my family thats not making things better for me. I really wish I never existed in this world. I honestly don't know what to do, what to feel, or how to make things better. Its not like I wanted the world, I just want something so simple.



I always wanted to belong to somewhere. However, I have never ever belong to somewhere.



Sorry everyone, I was never really a good friend, and looks like I won't be a better friend anymore.