Life is a chore, again

You know it's just a little too late


Funny how I always feel shit, and always ending up being happy again, but it's just me, escaping from reality.



Sem one is ending really fast and quick. Later we'll be attending the last lecture of the Sem, and it's conducted by our course manager.



I have no plans later, but probably meeting up with all-rounder and E! Together with Chia I suppose?



My grades are really, very bad. It's making me feel, I'm not meant to be in this course. I know alot of people would tell me how alot are dying for a spot in TP's CMM and I'm now ranting how grades suck but instead of ranting, I should be working hard.



It's just when you're down, you can't think right/straight.



Well, but on the positive side, it can't get any worse than this.



Can it?



It's always a battle all the time. Fighting myself to be a better person. Well, but sometimes I fail and end up hating myself even more.



To the extent that I don't even want to face myself.



You know sometimes, when you just don't like a single thing about yourself? Your voice, face, hair, dressings, work, everything and anything.



Fucking issues you fault yourself with.



It's really annoying, and it always kills me from the inside. How wonderful.