Family, friends, love, money and myself

& it's always unfair.

Don't you agree? Life is never fair. I've never really did accept that though.



Spent alot of time thinking and I guess I can conclude that all the problems we face revolves around 5 things.



Family, friends, love, money and myself



No?



It's either this or that. Really. You could think about it yeaah?



For me, let me elaborate the problems I'm facing now.



Family :
Wonder why I cancelled three? Well, people say that family stands for "Father And Mother I Love You". Yupp, and I guess it makes sense now why I cancelled the first three.



Well, but deep down, I still love you two because you were the reason why I'm here. Despite me hating all the shit times, but who doesn't have problems? Though I always wanted a simply, happy family, it was never possible. I know it.



Though I never will have the type of family I want, but nevertheless, life still goes on.



Friends :
However, I'm am so glad that I have the best of friends in the world!! At least to me. I really spend half of my life till now with my friends. Since school started that is. I'm really glad to have friends. I've ever said before that, friends are everything to me, and I really mean it.



You guys are everything to me.



Love :
I've never been loved, and so I won't know what is it like to be loved and to love others. It's an excuse I know, but I guess, being loved by it from family or the opposide gender, makes a difference.



Money :
I've never been rich and I don't want to, because I'm satisfied with what I have now. What I get, I get, what I won't get, I'll try. What I really can't, I'll wait. I won't force it. Though sometimes, it really kills when you don't have money.



Myself :
I think, I'm just a total failure. I just suck. Totally. Been trying so hard and my best, but I guess for all the 16years, I've been deceiving myself. I never really did accept myself for who I am.



I've struggled so much for all these years. I'm still in the process of moulding myself, but I'm going to crash. Really soon. Before you know it. Or maybe I'm already crushed and I'm just denying to myself.



Well, I think what I've said really made sense, everyone is facing either one of the five or, five of the five. Yup.



I'm feeling moody because of everything going on to everyone and myself.



I guess thats if for today. Orientation tomorrow, and work was fine today.




Thanks P.O.S, take care people.




Tata.