Memories....

So much we've been through...

No doubt everything changes....have I also changed?



Along my whole entire 3years, the 4th which is coming to an end. My years in Yuying was definitely full of ups and downs. Learnt important life lessons, coping with stress and handling with all the different people and problems surfacing. Thus, everyone do grow and mature. It takes time and so have I, grown up.



Though I didn't change physically but have I changed for a better person?



I often feel very lost and wonder if I had changed into a more terrible person. Ever since I took up the Headprefect post, I really wonder alot. I don't know what to do and who to talk to and how to react. I feel so numb on the outside. I'm dying from the inside. Time passes and it becomes a habit, doing the unknown and just felt that the world was against me.



I never knew from the start whether was I the correct one. I had all my friend's encouragement. Yet now when I look back at what they say, nothing seem to encourage me anymore. It means alot to me, so much and dearly to me, did I made the wrong decision? Was it wrong from the start?



I really question am I a good friend. There are so many out there who were there when I needed them and render help from them. Have I done the same for them? Have I been a goodfriend for them?



I just want to breakdown, and just leave this complicated world called Earth. Or should I say, reality? I ain't running away from reality, neither thinking of nor ever wanting to. Just that, this feeling of being lost and yet all you can do is to stay strong and live on.



I also often question myself, what really makes me happy. What am I for in this world, being yet another typical being in this small little country, Singapore? Or really outstand and shine amongst the rest? For obvious I will give in my best but is this good enough? Good enough to satisfy everyone?



Out there, so many more people who deserve better life. I have alot and yet I don't seem to be contented. I don't seem to cherish things or people around me.



I really wonder, are the changes around me due to my change? People who use to treat me closely, did I result in their change? Have I done my part as a friend?



I never wanted all these and people out there who's reading this post. I do hope that you'll keep in low and not going around making a big fuss out of this. Thank you.



take care, smile more and always. Thanks P.O.S. who were there for me all these while... and today marks the last day of March. Belated birthday to ALL and

Happy birthday to Jeremy Yeo
Happy birthday to Xiu Ting
Happy birthday to Auntie Medelynn
today.



Tata.