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Friday, January 12, 2018

Hello 2018!

HELLO 2018! Its been awhile.

This is a random update! Found something meaningful shared by my good buddy Jas. Its a long but worthy read~

"When your heart breaks, you will feel like you will never love again, and you will be alone forever and ever. That feeling is a lie. The night passes. Dawn comes. You will be fine.

When you meet a stranger and your eyes lock across a crowded room, and every fiber of your heart and soul sings “Yes! Yes! This is the one! I am in love!” you are not in love. That's the very old part of your brain saying “Our offspring would have awesome immune systems.” You can not love someone you do not know. When you feel that feeling a couple of times, you'll learn to recognize it for what it is.

Movie stars do not generally make good science analysts, political thinkers, or life coaches. If you take medical advice from former Playboy centerfolds instead of doctors, or think that B-list movie actors are better sources of political ideas than actual political scholars, you're apt to end up somewhere you really don't want to be.

All the angst and turmoil and alienation you feel is as old as written history. You aren't the first to feel these things and you won't be the last. All of this has happened before, and all of this will happen again.

Incremental progress toward your goal is better than stomping your foot and saying “if I can't have everything I want right now, I'm going to burn it all down!” Incremental progress is progress. It is impossible for dead Utopians to build Utopia.

The world changes faster than you think it does. I was born into a world where everyone believed the eternal struggle between the Soviet Union and the Americans would destroy mankind. Being gay was still illegal in many states when I was born. Now gays and lesbians can marry, and there are voters who weren't alive when the USSR was a thing. See reference to “incremental progress is still progress” above.

The things you consider life or death matters of supreme importance now, you might not even remember, much less care about, thirty years from now. Choose your battles wisely.

It takes decades to develop a reputation for integrity and trustworthiness, and just one single decision to destroy it.

Other people are real. They matter just as much as you do.

Nothing is as simple as you think it is, even when you factor in nothing is as simple as you think it is.

Small decisions have big consequences down the road. Imagine a space probe on its way to Mars. The tiniest, tiniest course correction at the beginning of the trip can mean making it there or missing by millions of miles. Every time you're scared to do what you want to do, but you do it anyway, in any matter however small, you're making a tiny course correction. Added up over time, they make a huge difference in your life and take you somewhere awesome.

Life rewards courage.

If you're ever stuck in a position where you have to make a choice but you don't know the right thing to do, the right thing to do is usually the thing that takes the most courage."

I dont know if I'll be back for long, but hello bloggersphere :D

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

2016; Hello

It's been too long. Always been wanted to keep this space updated, but yeh in all honesty, I'm just too lazy or pen my thoughts down. I'm just spending every night thinking and worrying about things (as usual)

When am I never in a mess in my life? Yes I still am hahahaha. Still sorting things out in my work life as of now! 

It's my last day of work tomorrow (yay or nay?) and was re-visiting some of my friend's blogs too.

I'm gonna abruptly end here, and be back after my job ends!

Sunday, April 5, 2015

Story of pain

"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.

I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye."

Hello

Hellloelllllllo!

Holidays begins! Few days ago actually!

Sunday, January 25, 2015

2015

Why hello there.


Hahaha, it's been awhile since this space was last updated. Was talking about blogs with my poly friends couple of days back last week. Blogging is really out of the trend. Hahaha, back in the days where people always had to leave a tag and all the wishlist etc. HAHA. Memories man memories.


Blogging has really become so commodified (applying what I'm learning now *erhem* HAHAHA), people only read blogs nowadays for latest reviews, stalking their latest blogger idol and kinda lost its most fundamental reason to blog- to pend down memories? At least to me, this is how blogger should be!


Don't ask me why I decided to come here, sudden feelz to post something. HAHAH.


Hope this isn't some 三分钟热度 hurhur.

Till again~

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Meaningful

"For all my friends, whether close or casual, just because. One of the longest post I will ever do, and the most real too. Everyone will go through some hard times at some point. Life isn't easy. Just something to think about. Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive? Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated? Did you know the ones who take care of others all the time are usually the ones who need it the most? Did you know the three hardest things to say are I love you, I'm sorry, and help me? Sometimes just because a person looks happy, you have to look past their smile to see how much pain they may be in. To all my friends who are going through some issues right now--let's start an intention avalanche. We all need positive intentions right now. If I don't see your name, I'll understand. May I ask my friends wherever you might be, to kindly copy and paste this status for one hour to give a moment of support to all of those who have family problems, health struggles, job issues, worries of any kind and just needs to know that someone cares. Do it for all of us, for nobody is immune. I hope to see this on the walls of all my friends just for moral support. I know some will!!! I did it for a friend and you can too."

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Lost

“The hard part is that I lost myself. In the midst of life happening all around me, I lost the ability to be okay, I lost the ability to trust. I lost the ability to love myself, and when that happens, you lose everything. And when the one person in the entire world who loves you unconditionally is gone, then you start wondering who will love you? And then when you start wondering, you get scared that you have to even ask that question. But since you have already asked yourself that, you can’t ignore it. Who will love you now? Who could possibly love everything about you, now that the only person in the world who could, is gone? Hell, you don’t even love yourself. Why would someone else? And then when you realize that, the relationship you’re in seems pointless. Because you start believing that they won’t ever be able to withstand your problems and craziness. And then that snowballs to even more insecurities and fear, and you feel trapped in this broken body that can’t ever be healed. And then you feel lost, torn, broken, unfixable, damaged, and like nothing in the entire world could ever possibly be okay again. Because you know from the past, that even when everything seems okay, another devastating blow comes around again and knocks you back down. So you feel even smaller, even weaker. By that point you’re at the bottom, you’re looking up in tears, ready to scream for help. But you’re not sure who’s going to be there, and if the person who does show up, is going to be the person you need, the person who’s going to pick you up, and help you heal. And then you realize again, that you lost yourself....




 That in the midst of life happening all around you, you lost ability to be okay.”

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Just like that.

In a blink of the eye, here I am typing this post. I'm not even joking when I'm saying that time is flying really fast. Its already past mid-April and ongoing to May. This only means I'm gonna be an ORD personal soon!!! (!!!)



The excitement!!!!!........that also comes along with so much unwanted worries and uncertainty sheeesh.



Too much to think/worry about. Studies and work. Plus I'll really miss alot of my fellow peer mates back in camp.... As much as this sounds weird coming from me (someone who really hated NS), but I really am gonna miss mainly the people. Definitely not the shit I've been put through in these 2 years (but hey), its because of all those, there are alot of take aways in this span of time.



Before I know it, I'll really gonna ORD. Looking back, when I first enlisted. Hahahaha. Really alot of overwhelming emotions now.



Hmmmm, life's been like that. What more can I say about it? Nothing short of shitty happenings, people to be grateful for, happy stuff to cheer me up when I need it the most, and stuff that makes me upset.... That's just life isn't it? A life that is perfect wouldn't be a life fully lived.



I'm gonna end my post here, but just do know that I miss blogging. I really do. Back in the good ol'days where I just blog whatever I want to. Hahaha. Back in those childish days I would say?



Here I am hoping that all of you have a week ahead :) I would be surprise if anyone actually still reads this blog. Ha ha ha. Text me if you do! Heh.



Till then ~

Saturday, January 4, 2014

Thankyou 2013

Been a really long year indeed.



Oh hi. Hahahah, I know I haven been in this place for the longest time. I sincerely apologize, well mainly because I'm just too lazy to get down to properly blogging since there's Twitter + Instagram + Facebook so I'm pretty much updating, just bite size ones.



Having that said, I must say that 2013 has really allowed me to go through alot. Having to serve the nation for the whole year (5months+ more whoopwhooop) and going overseas trip thrice, India and Australia x2, has been very meaningful. Apart from that, its just earlier this year which I went for my course for my vocation then we departed straight to India....



Time flies really, time flies. Looking back, really can't list down every single events but roughly here are some:


  1. Serving da nation
    • As mentioned, start of the year, went for my course, and quickly to India. Going to Australia just 2 months back is also a great experience. A lot of people always tell me "Eh, you should be happy you're going overseas cause not many people get to go overseas and some more twice during their course of serving the nation." Well true enough, I feel that its really something, we can only experience this once in our whole life. I mean to go with these bunch people, (apart from all the shitty saikangs and what not to do and go through) everything else was worth it.
  2. Meeting new people
    • Of course meeting so many new people. Friend's friends. People in camp, etc etc etc. Thankyou for being part of my 2013, and don't mind being my friend (considering how weird I am D:) but nonetheless its always good to meet new people in your life.
  3. Me
    • A lot of things that made me a better person. To prep myself for whats to come for the upcoming year ahead. I feel a different person from who I am today, and comparing myself to the one at the start of 2013. I mean, if you can feel the difference, then I'm sure people around you would have felt it as well. Of course I do hope its a good change in me? 



I manage to complete some of the resolutions I made in 2013. Okay maybe I didn't really properly list them down specifically but, I feel that I did accomplish things, be it tangible or not. I'm glad I did.



In the upcoming year ahead, would be a life changing one since I only have about 6months of NS left, and then its the start of another new phase in my life. A lot of shit has happened as well through the course of 2013, but whatever it is, I'm still here blogging and reflecting it means it didn't kill me. (did I make sense? LOL)



Whatever it is, I just hope the upcoming year will be fruitful, and a safe and healthy one =)

Friday, November 22, 2013

Secrets

"Secrets.

Funny how, when you're about to be given something precious, something you've wanted for a long time, you suddenly feel nervous over taking it.


Everyone, wants more than anything to be allowed into someone else's most secret self.


Everyone, wants to allow someone into their most secret self.


Everyone feels so alone inside that their deepest wish is for someone to know their secret being, because then they are alone no longer.


Don't we all long for this? Yet when it's offered it's frightening, because you might not live up to the desires of the one who bestows the gift. And frightening because you know that accepting such a gift means you'll want-perhaps be expected- to offer a similar gift in return.


Which means, giving your "self" away.




And what's more frightening than that?"

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Been too busy (or lazy maybe)

I know I haven been updating for already 3months! The weeks went by really fast. Despite not updating this space, I do pen down events taken place through the weeks somewhere else!



I would do a proper update soon, just know this blog isn't dead!

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Feeling like krap

Most horrible few days it has been. Went to A&E on Friday night, for my migraine and turns out I have ear infection (?) Sat, just went for family dinner over @ Swensens Tampines. Sunday headed over to A&E (again) for the 2nd time....




Had MC and still feeling like krap. Went to A&E yesterday, for the 3rd time because still feeling krappy. Went to extend my MC and returning to camp tomorrow (which is later today).



This is really shitty :(

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Need more time; 6months of 2013 remaining

Weekends went by quite quickly! Friday, on an impromptu decision to have Sweechoon for supper!! Along with Brenda and Sherraine (Xueyan couldn't make it last minute D:) Before that, went over to Brenda's place for chongpang nasi lemak for dinner. Though I'm really curious about Boonlay's nasi lemak as claimed by Brenda its the best in Singapore!


Upon reaching Lavender MRT, and after arriving at Sweechoon, only then we realized we made a friggin' big round -.- we could have just stopped at Simlim and walked instead of going to Bugis > Lavender > Sweechoon.



Sherraine joined us  about 15mins later after we reached. Oh and while we were busy catching up........our queue no was called like n-th time OTL so I don't know how much queues did we missed. Nevertheless, we got seats inside! So thats not too bad. Got aircon. Their shop is really huge though. Takes up like 3 shops worth of space.











After having our supper, being Sherraine, she wanted to do something more, so we walked all the way back to Bugis, sat at Starbucks and then begin our 'altered Bridge' taught by Brenda. We stayed from about 2am - 4am? Hahahaha. Well but it was fun. Though I think I lost the game overall, by a few points and have to treat them a meal.





Thats for Friday night! Saturday, yesterday, was spent over at Laihan's place! Celebrating her 21st! Went there really early -.- for nothing. Good to see alot of familar faces! Finally met Rebecca after so long! After 1year! Remember sending her off in my smart 4 before book in. Hahahh whut. Of course there are alot of people who manage to meet after so long =) Here are some of the photos for yesterday!



RIIISSSSSKKKKKKKKKKKKKK















After that, all of us went home at about 11pm.



Should be meeting the poly bunch later over @ Katong! Hopefully July will be a good one. There's only 6months of 2013 left! Time flies.



QT PIESSSSSSSS







Sunday, June 30, 2013

Reunion(s)

22nd, Saturday

So last week, manage to met up with the tekong bunch! Finally after months, finally met them. Those who came were- Leon, Dickson, Dawei, Weimin, Gabriel, Wenyang, Ken, Yewhup, Wenfeng and Chinboon! Was suppose to meet at 12pm but alot of people was late as usual -.- including myself. Only until about 40mins of waiting, then we left for lunch! Kudos to Dickson and Wenyang for being really early!

Haze was reaaaalllly bad, so I decided to wear my N95 mask out!



Had Manhattan for lunch! Was not too bad!


After lunch, we headed over to Ah Chew's Hongkong dessert and thats when Wenfeng had to leave!



Greenbean with seaweed and tangyuan added in!


Headed over to Cine later because I wanted to use my vouchers to get my Vans shoes (21st gift from Elisa, Jwei and Teckliang) but guess what??? Don't have my size for the shoes I wanted.......AGAIN. Sigh :( Really think I'm not fated for Vans.....


Then, headed to Kovan because I wanted to satisfy my curryrice craving! Metup with twin!



Will never get sick of this awesome stuff.



We then walked over to NEX and did some window shopping and lepak~ after which we decided to walk back again, and then home I went.


23rd, Sunday

On the next day, went over to Kiv's place with Mich to get our surprise done! Had lots of fun, and the things we do for our friends............. OTL


Then head over to Esplanade to watch Yfest concert! Saw Harold there!





28th, Friday

Here are some of the photos from Brenda's 21st celebration over at her place few days back!




Starstrukk *__*















Happy 21st Brenda!



Happy 3 friends n__nV





29th, Saturday

Finally, had our 4A bunch reunion because Darien is finally back!



The food was not too bad, but wasn't so fantastic either!




Cher's Cupcakes! Courtesy of Yiwei! Thanks for the treat yay.



Watched White House Down after dinner! Over at Cineleisure. Then left for camp. . . . .


Hmmmm, in a rush to book back into camp :( Hopefully the week won't be a shitty one...... really damn sian over the weekend with so much shit happening (but then again whats new. Sigh)



Thoughts; Army

Let me express how I feel about being a man VS sergeant.



Alot of times, man will always complain about how a sergeant's life is always alot better. Which may or may not be true depending how you look at it. To me I feel that, as a man, even though you have to follow the orders of your commanders, you don't really have to worry much about how things are being carried about. All you have to do is- follow orders. As simple as that. You don't have to care about anything else, just get the job done. On the other hand, being a commander is alot more different. You have to worry about everything thing else, like how things are done, who to do it, and apart from all these, this exclude the problems that your man may/may not give you!


Personally I feel that, a sergeant has ALOT more freedom as compared to a man. There are alot of things which a sergeant can CHOOSE to do or not, but on the opposite end, a man only can follow orders. So sometimes, me being a man, I cannot stand how sergeants carry out their duties or the way they decide to get things done. For example, a sergeant have the freedom to do so many things, lets say if you can't do COS/DS duties, you can always get your fellow commanders' help to rotate or help you tank. However from my point of view (a man), when we're tasked something to do, you have to do it. In the worse case, is when the other man don't want to do, and you always have to end up tanking all the shit. 'Cause at the end of the day, if the job isn't done, all kena scolded, then how? Still must do right. I'm sure some of you can relate to this, always end up tanking all the shit. Worse is, when some people do half-fuck shit, and you do the proper way, they don't get punished or whatsoever. Then you feel damn sian, like why must I do properly when others can do it half-fuck.



Double standards much.


Next, a sergeant can choose, as and when they want to go canteen breaks, or like OTOT gym or any other activities, but as man, we need to always ask, request permission or wait only until the sergeant decides to give privileges then only will we have. The kind of freedom a man has as compared to a sergeant really very huge contrast. In some places the kind of freedom a sergeant has, really damn scary in comparison to a man.


Then again, from a commanders' point of view, with power comes with responsibilities. Some people just don't know how to handle the power and trust given to you from above or even your own man. Similarly, as a commander, it is always important to trust your man. Know who to trust, and when to let loose and be flexible. I mean, come on lah, even if you want to save yourself from trouble, also don't need to go to the extend of being so selfish and only caring for yourself. You should always be genuine about treating your man well. As long as your intentions are real, I'm sure your man will follow your orders and treat you with utmost respect that you deserve. It is also very essential that you need to see yourself as a commander, and act like one.


However there is something that I strongly feel; Doesn't mean being a man means you're not a good leader and likewise, doesn't mean you're a sergeant means you're a good leader.


We all know that, some people got into SCS/OCS is purely because of IPPT/system was fucked up. Or there's some 'hidden talent' that apparently SAF sees in you which almost the whole world can't understand or realize. So don't be complacence that just because you have that rank means you are always right. Always have the learning attitude and be humble.


I always believed that; if you're good, people will know it. You don't have to even make the effort to show people that you're good, because time will tell. So to all the fellow man out there who couldn't make it to command school, fret not yeah! You can always be a great leader in many different ways! Of course, I'm thankful to all the commanders out there who have been doing their job well, and treating their man like their own. Really appreciate the efforts and really look up to you.


For me, I was actually suppose to go OCS, but decided to reject command school due to eye problem. Long story short, and sometimes I ask myself, whether if I did made right decision. Wrong decision? Regrets? Maybe. Its just that feeling where, you know it could make alot of difference to your life. Well with that said, if I really did decide to go, I will go SCS instead of OCS but sadly I have an health condition.


So to all sergeants/sergeants-to-be and even officers/officers-to-be, don't treat your man/commanders like shit! Because without them, its like balloon without air- useless. Remember, teamwork! Only then SAF and even society will be a nicer place to be in.

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Under da Sea ~~~






Met up with these people last weeek! 8)


Tooo lazy to get started on my peektures from sea aquarium but these will suffice for now!!

Friday, June 14, 2013

Thoughts;

Just why do people look down on themselves? As long as you've done your best (and only you know it best if you've done so) isn't it all that matters? So long as you've tried, at least you gave yourself that one chance whether or not it went the way you wanted it, at least you know you didn't stop or miss that opportunity. Isn't it about proving to YOURSELF and not others that matters? Why would you need to please anyone because only what YOU feel matters right?


"Those who matter don’t mind, and those who mind don’t matter"


No one should ever feel lousy about yourself. You were not born to be perfect. Nothing should bring you down unless you allow yourself to. Which is why, you should never let anything bring you down.


I don't exactly know if what I just typed out made any sense, but just wanted to pend this thoughts down.

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Katong cravings





Met up with twin just now! Wooohooo. We headed over to IT fair over @ Expo. Didn't buy anything though. Then went for Katong laksa omgaaaah. Been craving it for the longest time! Plus it's Jwei's first try!


How can anyone not resist food like that!!?!

Then we did some shopping over @ Parkway and then headed home! Saw plenty of familiar faces today. Saw Ben Hiew, Charles @ Katong laksa and Boonkiat at the fair!


In the end I got BK to buy the WD HDD 1TB going at $99 which was worth it!!!


Yay. Ummm and here's a little recap for camp. Had my first route march ever in camp together with my mortar mates! On Friday. After a solid 8months of not doing! Sheesh.



Not too sure what to expect next week in camp but looking forward to weekend already because I'm going adventure cove!! :D

Sunday, June 2, 2013

Brace myself, welcoming June


June will be the toughest month yet. It's only gonna get tougher each day. Or at least that's what I think it would be.


Training wise, or everything else. Once again, just gotta brace myself for it. 

Reunion




Earlier just now (yesterday), met up with the 2A bunch which most of them I haven met in ages!! Was really heart warming to gather everyone all back together again :)


Ummm, just a quick update. Gonna crash because I'm still dead tired from this week's training x_x


VOC > IPPT > SBJ-around-stadium training


My body is dying OTL Zeenight!!