A week, or so

Not too long away was my 20th birthday. Okay to be exactly its 10days ago.



So, haven really done a thank-you-post for those who made it alot better this year. Here I go, special thanks goes to....



Elisa, Jwei and Teckliang! Honestly, thankyou for the present n__n also for the meal, and most important for the time spent and finally we had one of the longest photo spamming in such a long while! Another phase of our lives just passed, and we are growing old. Hahah, but lets just have more fun times together! :)



Sherraine and Brenda! Had a simple dinner, and fun times? Don't think Sherraine (or Brenda) you'll see this, but it was a simple but heart-warming dinner. Prettty girls for birthday dinner? Hahah. Anyway, thanks yeappp. Looking back, its really shows the effort we try to keep in touch with you okay Sherraine! So lets hope let will get better for us :)



Deanna, Nava, Keith, Yiyun, Mich, Stef, Melodi, Brenda, Rachel, Jean and SL! Thank you so much for the celebrations over @ Botanic Gardens. Really had a fun (and stormy) day.Too much to say, but I'll just keep this short Poly days are over, really over. Looking back, there's just too many precious moments over the span of 3years. Time flies. Looking back, we started with only small groups (in our own classes). Was thinking to myself, about how all of us became together as a big bunch.. Rachel and I were the bridge? (Sorta?) And thats how things began.. From now on, we may lead our own lives (yes with guys going to NS blah) and everyone else heading to different Unis (local or not), I just hope we will still have a fun times together, and to make the effort to keep in touch even after we officially graduate.



Of course not forgetting, friends who still bothered to wish me happy birthday via Facebook, text, Twitter and anyone else that I did not mention! Really appreciate it alot.. To me, birthdays means alot when someone actually remembers it (regardless of getting a present from this person or not) and takes the effort to really wish you happy birthday. It upsets me most when people who are closer to me don't actually make that effort? In all honestly, presents are the like last thing according to how I rank birthdays. Believe or not, up to you!



So once again, really thank everyone who made things alot more better, and special for me.



In regards to whatever that happen over that 4days. Before my birthday, during and after. Sigh, its all still in a mess. I still can't really comprehend what went on? There's just too many things that happened and these things are things that meant alot to me. Each one dealt a blow, and the subsequent ones dealt greater blows one after another. It really sucks, and on a deeper level, it just crushed that glimpse of hope that took lots of time to build up.



Not gonna lie but I am still feeling upset over what has happened. Still feeling bitter that EVERYONE had their "best semester results ever in their poly lives" and also "pass with commendation for internships" and whatever not (by this I don't mean that I'm blaming them, rather I'm thinking to myself why do I suck so badly sigh). Still can't understand why of all days to lose my phone, I lost it on the midnight after my birthday @ 2 fucking AM. Got to know that my grandmother over at my biological father's side was hospitalized on my birthday (but thankfully she's feeling alot better and resting at home now). Quarreled with my mother (credits goes to the kids) and almost nearly scream at her and blast at her all at one go.



Well, but what to do? Life sucks, and my life sucks even worse. Haha. Don't understand why do I always give myself false hope thinking life will get better somehow, someday. Always thinking people will appreciate me, and that being helpful, going the extra mile for the others is worth it. Why am I so gullible?



Sigh. Anyway, nevertheless I am ALWAYS grateful for anyone that helps me and that I really appreciate for the effort.



So.....I was suppose to sleep an hour half ago but here I am still blogging here. Guess I should head to bed. Work for the next 3day for an event @ MBS! Hope there's good food, smooth-sailing job and of course the money that comes in after all the hard work!



Goodnight. Also really hope my eyes can heal somehow. Need a miracle to happen ): please stop giving me anymore pain than I already have.



Okaay, for real. Goodnight.

Passion

Blogging isn't just all about rantings and spamming photos of self/photos taken with friends etc. Its more than just that. Its about pending down your thoughts, feelings and reliving them whenever you look back them one day.


Thus, it really requires passion to actually keep updating a blog! I mean, a blog doesn't need readers (some people might debate that a blog is meant for people to read) but my stand is opposite of that. I think, it doesn't matter who reads your blog or whether is there even any readers because at the end of the day its what you wanna do with it!



So quickly, its already mid-March! Just had MediaBiz Awards yesterday and it really flashes back alot of memories through the 3 years..... It was fun overall, and thank the year 2s for actually making the food themselves! Plus they made cupcakes for everyone in the batch including this cute little picture of us (yes the horrible matric card photo that everyone feels disgusted looking at ourselves) which I'll post em soon!



Work started, yeah on Monday and and working till I earn enough? (which is never by the way because money is never enough?) Besides its always good to have money if you know how to spend your money instead of wasting them away (yes I am guilty of wasting my money sometimes on wants) but who doesn't anyway?



Well, and today hell because I went to work feeling MAD sleepy =( Must be the Wii + Kinect exercise we (Stef, Mich, YY and I) had yesterday as well!! Hahah, but it was really fun! Alot of derpy moments and a good workout nonetheless! Speak of which, I should be running daily and its been......... zero progress. Hahahaha. Fatnessoverloadwooohooooo.



Then after work, with nothing to expect, just looking forward to having great meal + hangout with my usuals! Went for a fulfilling meal, steamboat and they had fried mantous!!!!! (ARFGHJKL) I had like 5 of them heh. Its just awesome ^__^ Hahahah.



Then we head to Bugis to shop!!! They bought bags and pouches. I bought nothing though, but nah until I earn $$$ I shall not spend!! Its alot more satisfying to actually buy things with your hard earned money because you know you deserve it and worked for it.



Then, I had a surprise! So nice of them to actually got me a donut and pre-celebrated my birthday! Thanks guys, really means alot! Really had no clue. Really melted my heart =)



Then we walked and had fun taking photos as usual. Then headed home!



Really in a mood to blog plus there are special memories! This shall be the start of my blogging before I enlist! Wonder who still blogs though. Hahaha, alot of people from my batch who used to blog alot no longer blogs. Especially guys!!! Rarely see guy blogs, but its cool. It really is =)



Hokkkay, so I need to actually I need to be awake in less than 8hours time! $$$ is the key to everything!!! (okay not really) Looking forward to weekends to celebrate have fun! Wanna meet loads of people!


P.S It only JUST struck me that results are releasing tomorrow!!! Ah well....crossing fingers!

Unofficially

School has ended! Until graduation, all of us will be spending time..... Some travelling, some working, some slacking and others leading their own lives!



Abruptly ending this post because I just applied my eye medicine -.-



Shall continue later!