Numb
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
?Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me
With someone disappointed in you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Busy and still busy
Been another while...
Haven posted here in awhile..
Well, so TNS has already finished! 2 weeks stayed was really fun/exhusting/scary/crazy. You name them, we felt them. Really crazy hectic 2weeks, but definitely a 2weeks I'll never see it again. Not with the same bunch of people.
I'm still lacking of updates here. Still haven got the "kick" to actually come back blogging. The weird thing about me and blogging is, once I've posted for something, to me its considered as posting for the day already. Precisely why I don't like to do multiple posting, and normally only post when its the end of the day, because it kinda sums up the day? Okay, call me weird but thats the way I feel.
School is officially starting next week. I still can't believe that holidays is over. Reason being, working for 4weeks and school for the remaining 2weeks. Time really went by that quickly. Looking back, each day passed by quickly. However it goes without saying that this holiday has been very meaningful for myself. That includes the YOG period too.
Its only 2 lecture so far and I think its already bad enough. Tell me this semester is going to pass really quick!
School aside, I've got a bunch of awesome friends who are always there to have fun together and to go through shtis together. I'm always grateful for them, having them around, so much fun and without them I don't know how I would carry on with life.
What if one day, everyone just disappears, and all go away? What will then happen? Its so tough, really it is. I feel like I'm living for someone else and not for my own. Have I been selfish? Have I done enough for others? My mind is a mess, and I think my life is screwed up. I don't know what to do, who to look for, or what to feel. Feeling so helpless, isn't there anything I can do about it? Been living day by day, laughing it off and brushing away...
In any case, school is really early tomorrow, slowly bit by bit I'll update all the pictures I owe and posts I lack for awesome people and awesome events!
Haven posted here in awhile..
Well, so TNS has already finished! 2 weeks stayed was really fun/exhusting/scary/crazy. You name them, we felt them. Really crazy hectic 2weeks, but definitely a 2weeks I'll never see it again. Not with the same bunch of people.
I'm still lacking of updates here. Still haven got the "kick" to actually come back blogging. The weird thing about me and blogging is, once I've posted for something, to me its considered as posting for the day already. Precisely why I don't like to do multiple posting, and normally only post when its the end of the day, because it kinda sums up the day? Okay, call me weird but thats the way I feel.
School is officially starting next week. I still can't believe that holidays is over. Reason being, working for 4weeks and school for the remaining 2weeks. Time really went by that quickly. Looking back, each day passed by quickly. However it goes without saying that this holiday has been very meaningful for myself. That includes the YOG period too.
Its only 2 lecture so far and I think its already bad enough. Tell me this semester is going to pass really quick!
School aside, I've got a bunch of awesome friends who are always there to have fun together and to go through shtis together. I'm always grateful for them, having them around, so much fun and without them I don't know how I would carry on with life.
What if one day, everyone just disappears, and all go away? What will then happen? Its so tough, really it is. I feel like I'm living for someone else and not for my own. Have I been selfish? Have I done enough for others? My mind is a mess, and I think my life is screwed up. I don't know what to do, who to look for, or what to feel. Feeling so helpless, isn't there anything I can do about it? Been living day by day, laughing it off and brushing away...
In any case, school is really early tomorrow, slowly bit by bit I'll update all the pictures I owe and posts I lack for awesome people and awesome events!
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Transnational Studies!
I need to get it back!
Yessss, I need to get my blogging vibes backkkkkk. Okay, so its always being lazy to blog here because I'm currently on a getaway site! I'm back!
Currently on my CDS, which requires us students to stay in school for 10days over a span of 2weeks. Weekends we get to go home, so that isn't too bad.
So far, class has been really nice, and groupmates are fine, apart from this guy, pretty funnny but nothing much other then that. Well.... so its really school in the day, and parties at the night. Its really quite cool, though it gets really tiring. Well, and it also drains your money, because I've been drawing out cash pretty often and not keeping track of where it went to. Urgh, don't get it started Jonathan.
Well, and of course its plenty of fun time with CMM koolkids! Having fun altogether, eat blah. I could get used to this kind of lifestyle, after all the apartments and rooms here are much bigger than my own house. I honestly don't mind staying in the single room.
Well so tomorrow is already Thursday, and it feels like so much things are happening at the same time within a day. So many thing goes through, and keeps your mind busy. Its not a bad thing. Lest it gets me thinking so much. Although in the night I still do let my mind run wild.
It only means that schoool is starting real soon, and the vicious cycle is about to begin all over again. The virtue cycle is about to end soon, and holidays this time around really passes so quickly.
So here's a picture to feed your appetite! Okay so its not going to satisfy but ah well, going to turn in now!
Aye, so going to shleeep now. May happier dreams come in now!
Yessss, I need to get my blogging vibes backkkkkk. Okay, so its always being lazy to blog here because I'm currently on a getaway site! I'm back!
Currently on my CDS, which requires us students to stay in school for 10days over a span of 2weeks. Weekends we get to go home, so that isn't too bad.
So far, class has been really nice, and groupmates are fine, apart from this guy, pretty funnny but nothing much other then that. Well.... so its really school in the day, and parties at the night. Its really quite cool, though it gets really tiring. Well, and it also drains your money, because I've been drawing out cash pretty often and not keeping track of where it went to. Urgh, don't get it started Jonathan.
Well, and of course its plenty of fun time with CMM koolkids! Having fun altogether, eat blah. I could get used to this kind of lifestyle, after all the apartments and rooms here are much bigger than my own house. I honestly don't mind staying in the single room.
Well so tomorrow is already Thursday, and it feels like so much things are happening at the same time within a day. So many thing goes through, and keeps your mind busy. Its not a bad thing. Lest it gets me thinking so much. Although in the night I still do let my mind run wild.
It only means that schoool is starting real soon, and the vicious cycle is about to begin all over again. The virtue cycle is about to end soon, and holidays this time around really passes so quickly.
I've got so much plans for what I wanna do, and some things that I wanna buy, but just so you know, I had my shopping spree not long ago! Nice clothes which I'll wear them soon. Clothes are getting more which only means I need to start getting rid of other clothes..... but you know that your life will turn so bad when sentimental gets the better of you in situations like these.
Aye, so I still am lagging alot of posts. Damn. Must. Get. Them. Posted. Real. Soon.
Aye, so I still am lagging alot of posts. Damn. Must. Get. Them. Posted. Real. Soon.
So here's a picture to feed your appetite! Okay so its not going to satisfy but ah well, going to turn in now!
Aye, so going to shleeep now. May happier dreams come in now!
Sunday, October 3, 2010
F1 + Callcentre + Shitload of other stuff
Nothing else matters
When your soul obtain peace within, thats when nothing else really matters :)
Okay, so I've been in and out of this blogger account, just changing templates, and nothing else. Thus I shall spend like 30mins now to actually type something lengthy.
So, as I was saying, that I've been really busy with school > YOG > school exams > work for call centre > work for F1 > work for call centre... So you see, the vicious cycle of wakeup > work > home > shower > squeeze some computer time (sometimes none) > sleeep > wakeup... for the last 4weeks! Exams actually ended on the 6th of September and now its already the 2nd of October! Really, time flies... On a happier thought, I've been earning quite some bit! Enough to spend and save at the same time! Really shitload hours of work..
However, not all is as bad as it seems! Work may be very tired but very fruitful indeed :)
The people I met, customers we face and the work which changes how we see things now. Perception changes after so much. From YOG all the way till today, alot of things I've learnt and experience myself. Be it in the service line or part of seeing a better self. So many many people that I've come across!
Let me just name em just in case I forget them... not that I will but okay, just for me.
From YOG: Elaine, Jenny, Rachel, Lynn, alot of people over at the venue itself I can't remember!
From Call Centre: Grace, Ally, Dada, Jeric, Hazel, (her friend I can't remember what name) Ezannye
From F1: Laiyee, Zikun, Liquan, Syed, Jeremy, Akbar, Davinda, Huifen, Huimin
These are the people I can think of so far! Will update more when I do my detailed postings for 'em!
Aye, so tomorrow is the last day of work! Its like almost 20+ days straight working, no joke. A little bit insane but I think its how internship is going to be like... I hope not!
Okay, so I can't be playing my Perfect World but tomorrow's the last day of work! So, means I can play soon! Plus proper blogging will finally carry on from next week!
Load up on water aye! I'll be back with much more I promise.
When your soul obtain peace within, thats when nothing else really matters :)
Okay, so I've been in and out of this blogger account, just changing templates, and nothing else. Thus I shall spend like 30mins now to actually type something lengthy.
So, as I was saying, that I've been really busy with school > YOG > school exams > work for call centre > work for F1 > work for call centre... So you see, the vicious cycle of wakeup > work > home > shower > squeeze some computer time (sometimes none) > sleeep > wakeup... for the last 4weeks! Exams actually ended on the 6th of September and now its already the 2nd of October! Really, time flies... On a happier thought, I've been earning quite some bit! Enough to spend and save at the same time! Really shitload hours of work..
However, not all is as bad as it seems! Work may be very tired but very fruitful indeed :)
The people I met, customers we face and the work which changes how we see things now. Perception changes after so much. From YOG all the way till today, alot of things I've learnt and experience myself. Be it in the service line or part of seeing a better self. So many many people that I've come across!
Let me just name em just in case I forget them... not that I will but okay, just for me.
From YOG: Elaine, Jenny, Rachel, Lynn, alot of people over at the venue itself I can't remember!
From Call Centre: Grace, Ally, Dada, Jeric, Hazel, (her friend I can't remember what name) Ezannye
From F1: Laiyee, Zikun, Liquan, Syed, Jeremy, Akbar, Davinda, Huifen, Huimin
These are the people I can think of so far! Will update more when I do my detailed postings for 'em!
Aye, so tomorrow is the last day of work! Its like almost 20+ days straight working, no joke. A little bit insane but I think its how internship is going to be like... I hope not!
Okay, so I can't be playing my Perfect World but tomorrow's the last day of work! So, means I can play soon! Plus proper blogging will finally carry on from next week!
Load up on water aye! I'll be back with much more I promise.
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