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Holidays here we come


Just bear with 2 more days and Freedom is here! Well, but I need to be on a constant reminder that straight after holidays, AudioPro is due.



Just to back track abit, here we go.



28th May- Jean's Birthday!

Right, so wokeup at like 9.30am to buy the foooood. Since it was Vesak Day, I had to make 3trips to the frozen food shop just to get the nuggets and sausages. Wanted to die because it was freaking hot. Bahhh.



Came back home, helped my mother to cook. Kept frying all the food. Whole house is oily. Hahaha, I'm glad we manage to finish in time, and got Deanna and Mich to come over to my place to help! Thankyou Deanna and Mich! Biggest credits goes to my mother. Thankyou Mom! Though you won't see this.



Went there on a cab, reached and saw her secondary school friends! Went to Keith's place, and his house is freaking awesome. Soon, people started flowing in, just so you know, its Pyajamas theme so all of us wore sleepwear.



Jeanette came, had fun, awesome food and enjoyed the night! Played bonding games, musical chair and this "Tree and Squirrel" game. Hahahah.



Soon, everyone had to leave, packedup and took cab back along with Stef, Deanna and Bryan!



Reached home with leftover food, but cooked them then next day anyway. Hahaha.



Anyway, Jean, if you're reading this, scroll down for a post dedicated for you! <:



29th May- Day @ Esplanade with Jasmine!

Yeaap, and so met Jasmine and headed to Esplanade with Jasmine! :)



She was studying but I was slacking. Bahh, but manage to study one lecture!



Right, we also saw this guy peforming with two guitars! Really nice, beat that!











After that, went over to Kovan, and eat awesome curryrice! :D Heh. Always love their curry, pork curlet and everything! Om nom nom nom.



Went to walk around, and we chance upon this shop where the owner had like 3 dogs! They were really cute!









I really think all 3 are cute!



Walked around Maplewood Park and headed home, thankyou Jasmine for sending me to the bus stop! As well as for being my companion for the day!!



30th May- Kpop Talent Semi-finals and Finals!

Saw Stef on the way up to Square 2, and met Chia. Ate at Long John, and headed over to the competition area! Brenda came shortly after the competition began. Well, all I can say is, all the 16 finalists were really great! I thought there were like 30 groups but its only 16. Thats how scary. Alot of their videos are uploaded on Youtube already, check them out if you want!



Melodi came before the finals started. Competiton ended, Chia and Stef left, leaving Brenda, Melodi and I to head for dinner! Brenda watched us eat, Subway. Yumyum.



Took bus 21 back, and was looking back, one year ago, the first person I spoke to was.... Melodi! Hahah, she's the first friend I knew from CMM, apart from Chia. Uhhh, down the memory. Plus, Xueyan was the 2nd person!! Hahaha.



Time flies.



Today, wanted to head over to school to study for Sociology but failed attempt. Bah. The weather decided to pour. Wasted my day, didn't do anything productive. Like always.



Tomorrow is skills test and I hope I do fine!



I was reading my blog archives yesterday, and I wonder, did I grow to be more childish as I grow older? Freaking myself out. Reading my archives, always brings me a different feeling. Hahaha, no idea why. Probably because I've changed? The way I think, perception. Everything and anything. Maturity I hope? Ah well, I just hope I'm seeming becoming a better person and a friend to be remembered :)



After today, 5months of 2010 will be over. We'll be welcoming June! Hopefully a new month, and something to look forward maybe? Holidays I'm sure :)

Durian; Esplanade

Spikey stuff





So here's Jasmine and I, studying in Esplanade!! Feeling geeky now 8) Hehe





Well but you probably wonder why am I blogging? Hahahah, so well yeap, as you can see, Jasmine is so hard-working and I'm not. Pffft. Bad boy Jonathan.



Aye, so I'm going to start studying sooon, probably after my laptop dies. Predictable, I know. Well but I did bring my lecture notes to study! Sociology lecture 4. See! I made an effort!



Alright, off to read the books notes.

Happy 18th!!! Jeanette!

Happy 18th!


Happy birthday Jeanette! Pili-pala!



So quickly its already a year! Time flies, and we're already almost half way through CMM. Been a crazy year indeed knowing you. Hahaha, and with that crazy experience comes along much joy, laughter and naughty-ness (whatttt?). Heh. Being with you, like I said, really makes me feel so decent, HAHAHAH. Like I'm considered kinda wild with my secondary school friends but when I'm with you, its like I'm the one. with the halo Hehe. Once again, keep rocking! 8)



Sincerely,
Jonathan

Happy 18th! Elisa! :D

Happy 18th!


Happy bithday ElisA!! :D



I remember very clearly, the first time I texted you was, during SL camp 2007! When all of us were during camp, and after the camp, you had to leave early and I mass sms everyone and you replied! That was kinda the first time we texted and from then onwards, everything was a different story. We became closefriend, and along with Jwei, you are like a 'laoda' to us and we're your 'kaki(s)'! Hahah. Okay, I know it sounds funny here, but well, you know and I know! :D I honestly don't know if you're reading this, but I hope you are (and you will drop me a tag to let me know you read this). Well, there's just so many things but all in all, I'm glad we became closefriends and yes, once again stay happy always okayay! We've got to meet up real sooon and do random stuff. Hehe :D



Once again, Happy 18th! Stay cooool aye! Hehe.



Sincerely,
Jonathan

Dance dance dance!!! + Kpop Competition over @ Novena, Square 2

Dancing fufills another side of me


There goes my weekend! Dancing my way through. Undoubtly, its a great experience and bonding! I really enjoyed it very much! Despite the fact that we didn't make it to the next round, I still think we did great. It was the best of all we've done so far. As a matter of fact, I will random dance to it still. Hahah.



Well, we were good, but the others were better. Well but hey, we were competiting against 100+ teams. Really felt good because I think we manage to pull it off :)



Friday we were practising like madddd. Saturday was the really crazy one, we kept on taking videos of ourselves and we did this 'Asian version'. Hahahahahahah, its so freaking funnny!!! Hahahahah. Well only Stef was the calm one.



So, firstly wanna thank Brenda, Keith, Michelle who came to support us!!! Thankyouverymuch!!! Can't express how thankful I am to all of you but thankyou! :)



Lizhen, Chia, Bridget and Stef, I think we were the best on the actual one. Hahah, and yes it was sure a fun thing to be able to dance with four of you!!! Great experience indeed. Thankyousomuch and sorry if I was like, annoying or anything.



Met early, like 9am over at Novena. Kpop Talent Competitiona 2010. Registration was like at 10am. Ate Long John breakfast, blahh blahhh, Stef came later, and I went to register. Guess what?



The moment the counter was open, I went to like, register and at first I didn't realized, and we were team 002. The total number of teams were like 120, around there. Really pure madness.



Went to practise, blah blah.



Finally it was about time to dance, Brenda came to video us! :) Thankyou! Soon Michelle came tooo!



I was called up first because I didn't need a headset, and so the emcee which is Matthew according to Chia, he was interviewing me and wanted to put me on a spot. Hahah, thankfully the team came up!!! Phew. Otherwise I'll die, like really badly. No face to see the world already.



Danced and yeap, so quickly we were done.



Went to look for the rest, and yeaaap. Main highlights after that was, we wanted to sing but just not the correct day, so went over to AMK for a moovie! Watched "The Losers" and I think the moovie was greatttttttttttttt! Awesome! :D Worth the money yes!



Yeap, so left, and went over for arcade, wanted to play LAN but had no time.



Quickly rushed back to Novena for dinner over at LJS, Lizhen called to tell me that the results were out so I went to check. While I was walking there, the emcee (Ben) said bye to me. Random, hahah.



Anyway, so I asked and found out that we were not inside, so well, its really okay :)



Went back, and shortly after went to Plaza, and to Daiso! Got my wide-tooth comb finally, and a green one. Hehe.



Yeap so after that, headed back home.



So before I end, just wanna thank everyone who came to support us, and whoever who showed their support on Twitter as well or via SMS!!! :) Thankyou!!!





Here's our group! Team Dakota!


Had fun after that.









One more last thing, a photo to end of the post. A random photo we took today during lecture! :D

Life

Life is never easy. Who says it was ever going to be?


So quickly, its already Wednesday. 3rd of 7days.



School is pretty much fine. Though we're going to be have yet another submission for BMR. Sleepless nights, here I come.



I hate it when internet connection gets bugged. Not like I can do anything about it, but I honestly hate it. There is a need to update myself with the Cyberspace daily (which is undoubtly, a bad thing). Always in need to update myself with happenings around me, which is another, bad thing.



I also hate it when pocket money doesn't come on time. Yet another something which I can't do anything about it. Its not going to help even if I were to ask earlier. It suck really badly, and yes I know this feeling so well I can even dream of it.



Why is it like a constant feeling to me, to feel so shitty whenever I'm at home? Just when I thought that things are turning for a better, but home never ever fail to prove me wrong. Why?? I'm so sick of feeling sick of home. Every day without fail I feel sick. Sick and tired of all these. Nonsense everyday. The best part is I cannot do anything about. Awesome.



Urgh, I hate this. Screw every shit.



I'm loving the fact that my nights are never early because of my stepbrothers.

Wedding dinner!

Falalalalalalala


Its already past 12am!! I'm suppose to be sleeping now, and to be awake by 7.30am, latest 8am.



Just to update here abit!



Went for a wedding dinner yesterday (technically) since its past 12am. Anyway, so I was updating via Twitter and yeah, I think I hype alot of people's attention. Hehehe. Sorry uhhh! I just wanna update good food, it's been the routine all along eh? Hahah.



Yeaap, so here's a picture of what I wore!





Yeaap, so I need to hit the sack!! Goodnight to all! 8)

With our first assignment submitted and skill test over with!

This feeling we all can relate to


With our first assignment of the semester (Single Cam) submitted, sure will the feeling that school started sets in. Probably when rushing for this assignment which already gotten the feeling set in. Likewise, had our first skill test for the semester as well- Single Cam. I do foresee more adventures yet to come for Single Cam.



I'm feeling alot better since my previous post. However, I know that somethings won't change. For the fact that how I feel or what I'll do won't change the fact that he's still my biological brother. Blood tie. Similiarly, doesn't mean that he's my blood brother and that I have to tolerate all the crap that he's giving me, putting me down to make him feel superior. He has no rights to do so anyway. He claim that he's weak but from the tone he's talking to me, its pretty obvious he think I'm weaker than him.



Think about it, why would A who say himself weak, but tells B that he's weak too in a way that it puts B down?



In any case, I'm glad that I'm moving on from this issue and lets just hope things won't get any worse than this. There's many other things that needs me to get done.



I do hope I won't be bored this weekend but, going out without bus concession = near death situation because once my money drains out, I'm in a deep shit. When that day comes, instant death will occur soon.



Alright, and so my class is heading out to Toa Payoh tomorrow for some class assignment after class so lets hope it'll be a blast tomorrow! I'm getting the hang of my classmates and yeaah, it is a piece of good news.



I just hope I'm still a closefriend to you alright? If you know who you are.

2 Month(s) Official

Hair rebonding


........ and so its already past 2 month...

What have I done?

All my life, only to realize what an asshole you are


Day started fine, thanks Stef for helping me getting the bread.



Went online, and an asshole came to talk to me.



My MSN nick stated "Unpopular Kid" and this asshole came and asked me, why do I want to be popular? Saying that I'm so superficial, and I need to learn that. Told him that I don't want to be popular but I was just stating it thats all. He then told me say I need attention and asking me to admit it.



I rebutted him saying tell him so what if its true?



Then he said I'm weak, I need to be stronger than what I am now. I got really pissed and told him that wanting attention isn't being weak. That is only what he think it is. I told him that I'm alot stronger than what you think I am.



Guess what he said? He said "superficial is superficial". I told him off that I don't need him to remind me, and that he said that I think I'm better than everyone when we''re all the same. Saying too bad, but I'll learn it some day.



I got pissed and told him, yeah I'm the best in the world. The best damn person on Earth. I'm weak, or whatever he deem me as.



He then said he's weak t oo, just acknowledge it.



I have no idea what is wrong with you, that you have to find problem with me. I have no idea why you can throw your fucking temper at me and expect me to expect me to accept your fucking temper. Look you fucktard, I do not need to tolerate your fucking rubbish and I don't need your concern at all. If this is how you show your concern, then don't show it and just fuck off.



If you think I want to be popular, so be it. I don't see a fucking need to explain to you, because you are not worth my time. So what if I need attention? Is there anything you can do with it?? Is there a need for you to come and bother? Don't bother coming to show your so called concern and telling me what to you. I don't need your advise on what to do. I lead my own life now.



Even if I'm weak, it has nothing to do with you. I don't need you to tell me whether am I weak or strong. So what if I'm weak? You are not any better. Just fuck your own life and don't bother mine. You are in no position to tell me what to do. You are already screwing your own life, and I don't need a fucktard like you to tell me what to do.



If you think I'm superficial, whatever. So be it. Thats my fucking problem. You don't need to bother anything. Since you think I am better than everyone, so be it. Whatever, just fucking get lost and continue to lead your screwed up life!



I have never ever think that, my own, biological brother will put me down. Ever since young you always think you're right. You think you are never wrong and I always am. What kind of brother are you? Putting your own sibling down. You're just an asshole and I do not need a brother like you. You can lead your life and I can lead mine. I don't need your concern at all. You can die for all you want but just lead your own life. You are better off dead. Don't drag me in any problems you have, and don't think I'll ever help you because you don't deserve me helping you at all.



For all the fucking shit you've done to me, you are going to get it. Karma will get back at you. You are just one shit ass hole fucktard basturd.



JUST FUCK YOUR OWN LIFE AND LEAVE ME ALONE

According to you

Things I wish I could tell any of you


I wish I could find something or someone that I can talk to and not being judged. Well half the time I'm always worrying about things I shouldn't. A worrywart, given by Brenda. So true so true.



Then again, who's not afraid of being judged by others? Especially when you want to maintain a fairly decent right? I mean its not wrong for me to say that we all wanna look good or at least have a good impression for others!



Then again comes the contradictatory when some say true friends don't judge you by what you do but who you are. Which I agree to a full extent! If you're a friend, you'll accept your friends for who they are. Well, there are many ways to seeing this.



Some also say, family are there for you in times of needs. Then again, its not like I don't want to look for them but its because I can't ): Honestly I tried but no avail. Bucking up my courage for another try is alot harder than trying to accept how things is now.



Honestly, what is worth fighting for? Self-worth? Pride? Dignity? Love? Friendship? All of it? Abit of each?



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Oh well, back to today, was having fun with Stef in AudioPro today :> Hehehe. Thanks alot Steffy! :D Hahahh, so fun right, to delete whole track and get ourselves into nerve-wrecking moments. Hehehehehehehe.



Tomorrow is a longlonglong day! Everyday is a long day anyway. Hah. Tomorrow can register for TP's 20th birthday! :D Fun I foresee.





Alright, need to hit the sack! Goodnight everyone!



On a (not-so) random note, my hair is starting to 'qiao'. Not curl but like float. Urgh, its annoying. Tsktsk.

Lecture on a Monday kills

Shaun the sheeps! :D \m/





This is what we do during lecture! :D

Welcome May! Thankyou April! :)

1/4 of the 2010 has gone by


Yes, and it makes you wonder, how much have you done (?)



I've done nothing much actually. Rewinding....



Oh well, but at least my days are more productive with school started. Or I think its better than holidays (?) Okay irony.



That aside. With May started, its going to be challanges ahead I foresee. School assignment is already due in 2weeks time! In fact, its only 1week more till the first assignment for Single Camera due. I'm always constantly reminding myself what is up but half the time I probably do shit than to start on the assignment. Well hey! I'm trying better! So don't judge me!



Many a times, I really feel lonely. Don't know if you guys know, but being lonely and alone is two different thing. Urgh, I know I shouldn't be feeeling this way but I really can't help it sometimes. It doesn't make things better when there's quarrels at home. I'm already trying my best! Its like, I know there's no one I can talk to when I've got family problems, or could be I'm shutting myself up. Well, of course with occasional rants to my friends (thankyouverymuch all of you!) but deep down inside, there's so much more I wanna say... Things I want to say, but I'm afraid for people judging me... Urgh



Then again, you know, the only people I've got to seek strength from are my friends. I don't know how I'll survive or what I'll do if I don't have these people in my life. Once again, I wanna thank all that have helped me so far! For everyone who did their bit in helping me when I'm down, thankyou!



I don't know whats with this sudden emotional stuff, ahha don't ask me!



School's a bitch and it always will be huh? Apart from the people. Well, lets hope things will get better for me alright? Same to all of you tooo!