Sorry people!

Really so so sorry! :(

Now I really can't blog people. Really sorry though. I wanna blog so so much more and alot of thing have been happening.



A stream of events just came about and about the most recent one, I guess there's nothing much to say.



To Who It May Concern:
Basically, I think things wouldn't have been that bad, however, I just wanna clarify that I had no intentions, nothing at all of insulting. I want to end things here, hoping nothing else will follow up. Anyhow, I have no intention of doing anything to insult you and so on. I do not have time to things like this.



Anyhow, I think that, I really hope thing will end and I have done what you wanted to anyway. I really hope things will end here.



Alright people, I will really GET MY COMPUTER REPAIRED ALRIGHT!?!?!!?!?!



Haha, yeaaah, rock on people and I will try to re-link you people soon alright? I really miss all of you ALOT and rock on people! Really! Missing everyone who tags me!



Thanks alot, to all who have been visiting my blog all these while (('=



take care, smile more and always!



Tata! I will BE BACK ASAP ALRIGHT?!?!!??SZXZSZXZSXS!!?!!?!?!??

Dearest prefects

Secrets unrevealed.



Greetings people. Remember that back in this year at February, Rachel and I screamed at you guys? Any memories?







Anyhow, today is Invest! :D Whee, it's really (: Nostalgia. I really will blog more on Saturday. With ALL my pictures alright? Wahaha :D I'm going to my father's computer. LOL!







Anyway, from this moment on, till Saturday, I am going to leave my blog with this post. Until Saturday. Thats all. Yupp, will NOT be blogging. Miss you guys alright? This post was meant for this year, 11th of Feb. 2008. It was this day. Alright? I waited for 5months. This is the moment.



I will explain more on this coming Saturday as well. Rock on people!




take care, smile more and always! Rock on people and read this post then.



Byee, and prepare yourself for alot. Tata. One more thing, this post was at THAT point of time and I have nothing against my dept heads anymore. (: We've fun loving people, cause we're not in position anymore! (:




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Regarding about today's LA, I did my own self-reflections. I asked myself whether did I do the wrong thing. Was I at fault to actually scold all of you like that. Did I went overboard by saying all those stuff. Should I have given all of you a chance? Am I being too unreasonable. I did all that I can to ask myself and did my self-reflections.











Attire, when I asked the department heads to stand up was for all of you to judge yourself what was your head's attire. At this point of time of the year, being heads and you can't even have proper attire, why are you even a head? This is not the 1st time I have been telling you about it.












Was it the first time? No












Was it the second time? No












Was it the third time? No












It's already the countless time that attire has been addressed. Like what I mentioned, can you just imagine yourself and a sec1 questioning your attire. You have a position in the board. Can't you just put yourself in a position of a head? Is it so difficult to do that? It's just a attire. Simple as that. Not even the president is allowed. Not the vice president and not myself.












Especially the top 3. I can proudly say that MY attire is perfect. As for Rachel's, I'm sure hers has no problem at all. What about you? Is yours acceptable? NO. Let me put this straight to your face. You are wearing ankle socks and put aside your attitude in class, you can't even have proper attire. I don't deny you have good working skills and time management but what the school wants isn't all just about people who can work.












Have you ever asked yourself whether have you gain the respect of the leaders you lead? Have you? Even the most basic thing which is having attire, you can't even do it, what more is there to say about? It really speaks about how you portray yourself.












Betraying others and bossing people all around, have you ever consider about people's feelings? Thinking you can get away with all the little things you've done wrong?












One thing I want to clarify, I AM THE HEADPREFECT. Who are you to give instructions to MY leaders? It's fine that you want to help me but you didn't even bother to tell me? Have you ever shown Rachel the respect she should be getting? Have you? Mdm Amrit gives you order, you could have chosen to pass it to me. Instead going around back stabbing people, saying how lousy am I. At least I know that I've gained respect from MY leaders. Although I may not have gotten every single one but at least I know that I've done my part. I'm not like some hardcore worker and goes around finding people to backstab.












It has come to a point where I am not going to tolerate anymore. You should really try to give in to people and not always wanting people to respect you.












One more thing, I've done my atmost best. Say all you want but I know that I've done my best. Whether all of you respect me as a head or not, it's all up to you.












Like what I've said, realize why we can't carry on with bonding activities is because we can't GET WORK DONE! There is only empty promises. Work can't be done and how do you expect we can play? Work is not only FRC which all of us are stucked at but also other own department duties. Everyone giving attitude. All sorts of excuses.












One more thing, you realize that attire that we are concerned about now is JUST socks and hair, we haven gone into details such as tie clip and collar pins. So many more. See the point here?

There are so many fun activities that I personally have wanted to carry out for the whole board. Have fun and enjoy together like how a board is suppose to be. Yet, so many times things can't be carried out. There was also times where there is bonding event. Example the laser tag, it was meant for the board to enjoy and pitting against each other. Have all of you at least TRIED to go for once? No, even if it didn't suit you, can you at least go and see how is it like? Try at least?

Also to everyone out there, if you wish to talk bad about me, saying how I suck and leading my leaders, how lousy I am. All the reasons you can fault me with, go ahead and do so. Make Jonathan Toh be the lousiest person on earth.

Wait, get one thing clear, I've done my very best.You are the one that doesn't seem to realize that. Say all you want, but have you ever thought where the fault lies?

Going around and backstabbing others, can you get over with your conscious? Can you? You may find ALL the fun in the world doing what you're doing now. Thats because you fail to realize your mistakes. Who can you blame? Yourself.

Finding people and trying all means to get me screwed up, go ahead. Just do whatever you want to. My conscious is clear.

If you think you can be a better leader then me, I want you to come and look for me face to face and tell me you want to be the headprefect, without hesitation I will give you my tie straight. Try me.

Disappointment. Know why?

I can see people have the cheeks to be doing your own stuff when I was trying to tell people off and how the attitude of the board is. Poor attitude. There is just so much endless issues. Attitude is the key to change the board into a better place. Yet it's just so difficult

I know it's not possible to get everyone to think alike and work together all in peace and harmony but the point here is, at least putting in your effort to be a less detestable person, wouldn't it just make things much better?

If one can do, and all starts slowly, one by one, then at least the whole board is improving and not just having endless issues.

What I could think of and what I should have mentioned is all here. As much as possible I am trying not to scold all of you, does it work? No. Must I scream everyday? Apparently, it seems so.

You can't wait for things to happen, take the initiative and things that you should be putting your effort to do, it's needless to ask you to put your effort. Duties are what a prefect should be doing and not complaining, "I want to change!" or things like, "Ee, the person is not nice/good, I want to change!". If you're gonna have all these attitude, stop. Either you learn and change, otherwise I find it pointless to stay in the board?

In case all of you don't know who I was talking about, it's that guy, who ever knows.

Thats all I want to say now. take care and smile more and always. Thank you, P.O.S. It really speaks who are there for me.

Bye.

It's tomorrow! (:

Headprefect'07-08

"Finally, today marks the last day of my journey. I'm really proud of everyone. Really. Be it all the sec3s, 2s, 1s, and 4s. It really melts my heart to see moments like this. Everything just all go past like that. All these moments. When do you have a day you see all your juniors take and step up. Everyday, no?



There is only once, in a life time, time don't go back for you. This is the only moments. Live it, past it, and love it. You really don't have moments like this your whole life. Nothing really beat this greatest sense of satisfaction. Nothing else, really. How am I feeling now? Simple and always- Nostalgic. I will really let it all out tomorrow. Who bothers who will say what. I only have this chance. Live it alright? You can't repeat it again."



take care, smile more and always! I really can't wait for tomorrow. Sad and happy. Overall, blessed that I can have this chance. ('= I really thank everyone.



Love all of you, dearest prefects. ('= I really do. Tata! (:



I'll be strong, no matter what. Deep down inside, thats the Jonathan Toh everyone wants to see! ('=

HELLO! :D

It's been long huh?

It's been long time. Haha, the blog rot huh? Haha.



Aynhow, I just wanna tell you people, haha, this 'emo' blog isn't in use. LOL!



Not often alright? Haha.



take care, smile more and always!



:D

It's only 2days away. Mixed-up again.

Insanity



This is puree madness xD !!







Let Jonathan Toh rant for the past two days. Alrighty huh?







Sunday, home bitter home. LOL! Decay-ed. Honestly speaking, it's a chore to go out and stay at home. Don't you just agree? :)







Today, school was 7.15am. Coolio huh? Haha. I had to attend rehearsal, ahah, early in the morning. Though I was late =X Haha. Sorry boss-Geraldine!







Today is GB day, nice! :D Haha. Marching was great and Eileen, I respect you alot alright? (: Not matter what, you really have what it takes! Rock on! You're not just any typical person I've seen.







Well, tomorrow I have to read my speech to the whole school. How cool can that be huh? It's once again time to stand in front of the school. Well, I can't explain but it is the last time I'm doing anything for myself, as a Headprefect. It's nostalgia. I can't help feeling so much worried but behind these fear, it's just hopes for the next batch! (:







*sterns face*
SEC3s! Hmm, I think you guys are really fine and so on. It's only two more days and nothing should bring down the potential in you guys. Rock on really!



I don't wanna nag. I probably will blog on Wednesday. Haha, so I shall like, enter my both text for yesterday and today.



"Seniors, juniors, peermates, they all are one board, one family. It's just so tough that sometimes I feel lost and how the board has changed so much since I first entered. No doubt every batches has their strengths. Everything happen for a reason, no?



People change along the way, we see endless potential in everyone but it's just so fragile. Friendship is just so, priceless yet fragile. I've somehow neglected friends around me in my course of duty, people whom I've really could have spend more time and have more fun. However, there's hesitation.What makes a good leader is to know what is important, and that is what moulds your character."



"It's a never ending journey. You never know what happens tomorrow, but you experience what went by today. Knowing what is lost, make up for it. Time is precious and hold on to what is dearly to you. To me, I've probably gain alot and lost something in return. This is life but lets face it positively alright?



It's just a matter of time, I've really been through so much. Kelly, Stella, Lynn, Nitish, Lizhen, Rachel and Mdm Amrit. 7 of you knew what happened to me, it's just so pain yet so unfeeling. I don't feel the physical pain, but the scar is just there. Make the best out of everything alright? I really miss/love you guys no matter what, at the end of the day."



take care, smile more and always!



Tata. LOL! My blog are words okayyy. Haha! :)

Thank you! (:

A million thanks to Jeremy [[:

I spend too much time on my DPA application. Haha



I guess I'll blog more tomorrow.



take care, smile more and always!



Tata! Tomorrow marks the start of a new week and yeaah :)

Saturday (:

Re-hearsal.

Today was invest rehearsal and, yeaah.



"It was never a good journey from the start, I had so much to overcome. It takes so much to overcome the fear of rejection. Slowly I made my way up. I tried my best in everything I do, as much as possible. I was so afraid I couldn't make up to it but it took me long enough to realize that I don't have to go around pleasing every single people because it I were to do that, I'll never be fair to myself.



Anyhow, it's only 4days from now till investiture. I see all the mirrors of people whom I've interact before. Be it seniors, juniors or even peermates. They just ressemble so much. However, time is counting down and I really hope for the best out of everything. We changed so much from the start, however in a long run, it will seemingly be much better (:"



take care, smile more and always!



Tata!! :DDD

100th post :)

So much to say, yet so little time.

Alrighty peeps! :D Investiture is only less than a week away. I feel, mixed-up. Haha.



Lets start from yesterday then. Tuition and couldn't blog, nothing else much apart from Cheryl coming to school yesterday :D Haha. DPA talk for us (: I'm really grateful for it and this made me have a clearer direction :)



Thank you Cheryl :DD



Which reminds me I have to get my testimonial typed out by tonight. No matter what. it's actually 600 characters, approx that amount of characters. Not words but chars. See the difference? Shit- is 4 characters but one word. Understand? LOL!



I'm clear of my direction and I'm heading poly. Nothing's gonna change this decision and yeaah, it's not going to and yeaah, not even if I score a single-digit points, I will still not go JC. As if I would but yeaah, LOL! I am really hoping and I'm applying all my three choices on Temesek Poly.



Yeaah, shall not reveal choices on my blog now. Haha, until the application is over. Till then, those who know, good :D Haha.



Back to topic, today we had motivation talk (: Great and awesome one! (: I can't be more then grateful, once again to them! :D Today is Alvin.



Barriers are scary thingy. Haha.



Anyhow, school was all fine and got moody after SS lessons today. Sigh, it's a disease in all Jonathans, no? LOL! I'm emotional. Not 'emo' alright -.- There's a difference. EMO and emotional is obviously different. Which dumb dumb would interpret them the same. Haha.



I neeeeeeed to type three different sets of testimonial for the application. I'm starting to them later. After blogging.



Today, went out with Taufiq, Nitish, Jasmine, Jiali and myself. Shall elaborate more tomorrow :D Haha.



Tomorrow is invest rehearsal :D



It just draws nearer. Making it more, sad/happy. Mixed-up. Heh. Well, here goes little paragraphs for today and yesterday.



"For all the moments we've spent together. There's just too much to say in such a short time span. I can't help feeling that, we are really great people. Not for what we've done, but what we've become. It's really suprising to see all of us becoming matured individuals and being able to be a better person in society. It's really great and I know that all of us made it through.



The journey is still long ahead and moments like this can never be replaced. It's not how long we've spent time together but it's what we've been through that determines our bonds."



"Problems never fail to arise. Nothing is ever perfect but initially, things were going on all fine. Not until things started to went rough and we had conflicts with each other. It's never ending and rash words came out of our mouths. Had silly fights but what matters most is we've gained so much.



Come to think of it, it's all these that mould us. The best out of us. I can't say for sure how the future will be like for us, but what matters most is we overcome these problems in life and it's how we look at it. Problems will never end and it's just how we try to solve and make ourselves better people, learning our valuable lessons from these."



There you are, off to get testimonials now alright? Haha, rock on people! :D take care, smile more and always!



Tata! :D P.O.S, I can't be more then grateful to all of you. (:

Graduating Ceremony (:

Leaders Week! :D
Passio (:

Haha! Alrighty people :D It's Wednesday today and today is a day to look forward for! Wahahahah.



Lets being(:



Morning, was crap. Really crap, know why? Rained like freak-crap. LOL! I was drenched from my knees all the way down. Like :O mann, it was irritating having shoes wet for almost the whole day. Wet wet wet. Haha.



Next, school was all fine and to start off today, it's leader's week! (: The start and begin! (: It marks the 7days-away-from-stepping-from-post. Yuup, for all leaders. Nostalgia isn't it? To me it is, it really is :)



School was fine and SPA Chemistry Skill 3 is next week, apparently it's during assembly period next week. Like OMGsxzsxz? -.- We are having our invest, I do understand studies apart but it's our day! Well, I shall leave it to fate, as time passes I hope that things would probably go for us this time around.



I was wondering, where in the world would I head after poly. I'm probably heading for poly and not JC, not ITE and not more or less. You could say I'm silly and idiotic because I chose poly but I know where my limits is. However, my main point is, after poly, where would I go!?



Work? Uni?



I'm stucked. Really, it caught be pondering and it's really soon enough that school life and study life is going to be over soon. It's really fast and I can't say things like how I should worry for now and not future. Nope. It really jammed me...



I need guidance! Really. Urgently.



Anyway, tomorrow there's a Temesek Poly's DPA talk by Cheryl Neo! :DD Haha, awesome huh?! Haha, I'll be looking forward to it and hope to get my answers to which poly and course I'm heading for.



Anyhow, Invest count down is really soon and yeaah, I'm really starting to tear and just in case, a week from now, I probably here and there would say little things about my board journey. So here's today! (:



"I started, as a little ignorant boy. It was all blur and my goals were clouded. I never had big dreams, nor big wanna-bes. I had nothing in life worthy keeping on for. Apart from memories which I cherish from primary school, there was almost nothing I could think about how I'd love myself more. Yet, now, I've learnt so much more, with all my friends I could ever ask for. For that, I love all of that ('=

Thanks everyone, for that silly moments from sec1 onwards, lastly, 2Azero6 rock on! :D "



take care, smile more and always!



Tata! :D Off to mug! xD

There's too much unfairness.

It's only a week away.

One week away from Investiture'08.



I'm feeling so much unfairness. How much more I could have done. Many others who just can't help but to feel angry. Angry for? Everyone knows. There's just too much injustice, so much it could drown everyone.



I feel, for the past one year, it's almost time to let everyone know how I feel. How so many things doesn't seem it is.



I will, and bet on it I'll make sure I'll shame whoever is may concern.



It's really, just, unbearable. Have faith I'm not making nonsical stuff out of this. Everyone share same sentiments.



The only simple reason why I'm doing this, is to make life fair to myself, because I don't see any reason why I should tolerate so much!?



Of my whole life, I tolerated shit and all the craps and I am NOT GOING to let this go away. Since young, I've been bullied by people and almost everyone has a impression I was weakling.



Oh, you think so? Think again.



You think you know me well? Oh no, you can probably think thrice before saying that, I am not a weakling you ever know I was since young. Who are you to judge me? Who I am to judge you? I have all the rights, only because everyone feels exactly the same about you.



Thus, it's not a biased point of view.



I will not let this go and mark my words.



I guess, probably not blogging about school stuff. Usual stuff and yeaah, tomorrow's the stepping down from council board. FINALLY. I'm glad. For obvious reasons why I wanna step down, I know you can read my mind (:



take care, smile more and always! Off to do some work, books and revision.



Typical of a sec 4 student huh?



Tata! (: Thanks P.O.S for being there, however we shall see and time will tell who's there for me.

School holiday! (:

Happy Youth Day! (a day after, haha :D)

Yeaaah! (: It's Monday alright, ah huh! School was suppose to start at 9am.....



Who cares? LOL!



It's HOLIDAY OKAYSZXZSXZ!



Anyhow, day started fine and went out with, Rachel, Nitish, ChongAik, Laihan and Taufiq. Heh, randomly went anywhere. LOL! Well, we're super intellectual though we don't seem like we are, haha!



Anyhow, went out till late and stuff, well more importantly is I finally met with Taufiq! ((: After months, finally! :DD



Anyhow, this post would be short, my phone has problems T_T and yeaah, know what? My phone didn't even ring at all for the whole day. Well, I'm unwanted :(



take care, smile more and always! (:



Tata! :D

It's the thought that counts.

I'm rotting, at home, LOL!

You know, you can really get sheer boredom and it really just makes you rot. Apart from studying but I feel supremely lazzy. LOL! =X

Well, it's a Sunday- Family Day. Maybe my family don't really go out. Now unless there's family stuff or festival to celebrate.

Well, now feeling little moody, I'll probably call the POSB and also SBS-Transit to get my cards cancelled T_T I really hate whoever who took my wallet which practically has nothing inside.

Curse those ass.

Anyhow, it's near 2pm now and I'm feeling bored. I should be studying like really hard now shouldn't I? Like reading books, memorising formulaes and just hope I don't end up riping off pages, LOL!

Study study study.

Wonder what are all the other people doing right now. I mean, friends around me and stuff. Well, I'm sure many are like having fun outside and stuff. Poor me staying at home. Haha, though I've got much to finish.

Currently thinking about someone. Hmm, have any of you had times where you wanted to speak to someone and that person just don't realize that. Haha, it's really annoying feeling I must say. Haha, well but he's probably busy with tuitions and all. Shall not expect too much. My phone haven sounded today. Haha.

Well, maybe I could this chance to get my work doneszxzsxz.

Today's Youth Day as well! (: Happy day to all youths! Haha. I never really knew what was this day for, but anyhow tomorrow's a public holiday for us and hopefully we could meet up with Taufiq :D

Here are some random pictures. It's just random stuff. Haha.

I guess this is it, I shall head to books now. Haha, take care, smile more and always! (:

Tata! :D Enjoy Youth Day! (:

It's, a tough and sentimental day.

Curse that freaking lady/man

This is freaking exaxperating T_T I've got Rachel's virus now~



Only because, I lost my wallet today :(



Everything was pretty fine, attend today's school for Love Our Community Day. We started from Kovan hub and as usual, we were actually doing all the collecting and guess what? Nitish didn't make it in the end -.-



Anyhow, Shihui, Junwei, Andrew and myself were doing the toughest road. Grr, it was actually sloped down. Not roads that are normal, get what I mean? It's like freaking exhausting..! Like, *phew* you could faint and fall flat on the street. Haha.



Anyhow, we quickly got things done and we thought that we had to walk duper far with all that we've collected but luckily, our benefactor came! (: We had this duperr big truck and tada! All done in a jiffy :) Haha!



We were actually dismissed shortly after reaching Kovan hub again and me and other few friends went to walk around and check things out.



Thats when we headed to Plaza Singpura and things were all fine but I lost my wallet at Long John Silver :(



I remembered clearly that my wallet was with me when I reached LJS! :(((



Whoever who took my wallet without returning, I hope you'll die and get cursed and may your hands rot and eyeballs sore everyday and hair drop and die in a bed of thorns!



Ass!!



Anyhow, I've already reported and hope it gets back to me otherwise I'll have to quickly cancel my cards inside. Lucky for and I didn't lose my cash.



Anyhow, I lost all my mood and I hope things will turn out fine.



I shall check out some things and maybe head to the books later in the midnight timing. Time to do self-reflection as well.



take care, smile more and always!



Tata! Welcome back Taufiq as well! (:

Friday, once again.

It's back again

I feel so tired T_T



It's Friday once again. tuition yesterday and same as usual, I learned more. Know what it means? TOHCHINYONG IS LEARNING HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!



Haha! (:



Anyhow, tomorrow is LOCD and it's our yearly school event. Well, to me, it's probably one of the last events we have to do for the school and making the best out of it, I shall just do my best for whatever I can tomorrow. It is after all our last event.



Anyhow, today school was really hell because I slept at near 3AM to finish my Chemistry but apparently I couldn't and got scolded.



Blame on Jonathan Toh and not anyone else.



Well, I don't wish to blog much because feelings of these days are really swirling round and round. It's either being too upset and, freaking worried/anger or just, showing a brave front. I need a break, so much for the strong front.



Tsktsk.



take care, smile more and always!



Tata! :D Blogging tomorrow! (:

Mind's on a rollercoaster

1 down, chunks and millons to go!

take care, smile more and always!



Feeling very freaked out. Lonliness kills you from the inside T_T



Tata. Chunks of work to complete.

It's a Monday! (:

It feels great! (:

It's only Monday and I'm feeling the blessings of school! :D



Haha. Really, I'm so glad I'm catching up for my Amaths! (: *though I was stucked at some questions during the afternoon lessons. Hahaha.*



There's improvement okayy! (: Haha, so please DON'T underestimate me =D Haha! That aside, school was pretty fine but was little moody during recess. It's just, you'know, the-jonathan-same-old-me. Haha.



Just let me be xD (probably because this isn't serious, not yet uuh? :D )



Anyway, there's Physics test on Wednesday! You know something? Physics, about what we're learning now, is about the "Fleming-Left-Hand rule". I could get a picture but maybe not now.



I need to rush for homework!



To-Do-List

1. English File.
2. Chemistry Rate of Reaction
3. Amaths revision!
4. Emaths TYS Paper 2 (questions I've not done yetttttt)
5. Uhh.........cards that were way longggggg overdued for birthday kiddos =X

Well, the last one is like, addition one. Haha, roar! I haven done so many, like around 30 odd cards? LOL!

Anywayyy, I guess this is enough for today. For those who's taking Chinese O level Oral tomorrow, remain calm and composed. Haha, you'll done fine, so all the best too! Amanda SYL and Rachel CPQ. Gogo! Many others!

Anyhow, work's piling and waiting for me! take care, smile more and always!

Tata! :D Home's a little noisy though...nevemind, byee! (: